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ok heres the scoop... [24 Jan 2006|08:34pm]
[ mood | amused ]

i kno its been a while so heres the the stuff that stands out:

my birthday is in 2 days

i cant wait for my party on friday

sat jim is taking me to a sixers game then we head to A.C.

valentines day with my loving friends n boyfriend in A.C. too

move in day for me n jims new apartment March 11th...

.....things r good...work is good...life is wonderful...right now my brother is quacking and dancing around...oh wait now he said "dont hate me cus u aint me"...will march 11th come soon enough?
not at all

ok i heart u all for now im gonna go take a shower n try to feel better cus im kinda sick

PS....fred...oh dear goodness i miss u soo much...call me soon so we can catch up on sooo much..i heart u
k bye
<3

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last nite was hilarious.... [29 Dec 2005|09:25am]
[ mood | amused ]

last nite after work me jim n dan all hung out at dans bachelor pad...it was an awesome time to say the least....between jim n dan dancing in the middle of the room to the shots and then the drunken conversations between me n jim....<3
i must say at one point last nite i couldnt lift my head off of the bed....and everything was spinning...but i had a great fucking time....some of it i dont remember but the parts i do was definitely worth it...
love
mish

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trying to remain calm [25 Dec 2005|02:06pm]
ok im kinda really nervous about going to meet jims family...
ah theres jim on the phone now asking me where i am...
im so scared....ugh...lets hope this goes well...i hate this part of a freakin relationship

wish me luck
mish
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im just so frustrated.... [20 Dec 2005|12:11pm]
[ mood | uneasy ]

already in my head i have tons of things floating around....to where it kinda gives me a headache at times... and theres a big issue between all my friends n jim for the whole new years celebration.... dont want to make someone choose between me n ur friends cus i kno i wouldnt want that but then theres the fact u'd just want to be with ur significant other during new years eve ya kno....i have to hear netta n jenn yell at me cus i dont have a sure "yes" about our plans cus jim has yet to give me an answer cus he still isnt sure yet...i hate putting someone in this kinda position i really do....but then again shouldnt it just be a given that u'd be with ur bf/gf.....this just frustrates me...but i guess it will all be panned out by later today...i just know i feel some sorta way about this...and im not sure how to put it. i hope either way whatever happens...my new years eve doesnt fucking suck like last year and pretty much the year before....

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kiss me with ur cherry lipstick...never wash u off my face <3 [15 Dec 2005|10:58pm]
[ mood | happy ]

oh i kno its been some time...life has just been very busy as of late...tons of work...among other things...all i kno is things are pretty damn great...
to start off tho...work has been entirely too isaine lately...the patients are so heavy and there r just so many...i love my job its just hard...and recently i just changed my scheduling now i work 5 days a week 3-11 starting after Xmas....hmmmm what else has been goin down...
OH YEAH I TOTALLY QUIT SMOKIN....no more that shit for me...i honestly dont really like it ...i dont like to smell like a cigarette i dont like havin to buy that shit and what about having to like stand outside n shit like that ...oh no eff that...i was talkin to one of my doctor friends at the hospital yesterday n then he pulled up a chest xray of a pt with breast cancer with spreading to the lungs....and its just a horrible way to die ....thru suffication...im sure thats how im gonna go neways but id rather not speed up the process..i used to even be hardcore against smoking n then i dont even kno what happened to me...but yeah i duno....im doin that
i fucking hate the holidays....all it is anymore is money being spent...no love in it i see from so many...they just want a gift...i hate that...me n jim were talking last nite about how much we miss that aspect of sitting at the top of the flight of stairs and trying to peek down to see what ur parents r doing downstairs with the xmas presents...i miss that part of my childhood SOOOOO much....hearing my mom like wrap presents n yelling "if u come down those stairs ill throw u out the window"..lol its just those loving moments i miss....i honestly dont evevn like being an adult...its hard and i wish things were like there were when i was a child forever....
so yeah...im alot happierr than ive been in a long long time...i have so many great things right now...im not saying things are perfect cus theres no such thing but i cant be happier with how they are especially with jim...a wonderful guy who i just cant get enough of....especially the snow fights...all i can say is i hope this feeling lasts forever...and i cant even find the words for how it feels.
ok im done...
wow i think this is long...but this is all the things flowing thru my mind...if ur interested
<3
mishy bots

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thats right bitches...</3 [09 Nov 2005|09:45pm]
[ mood | amused ]

ok things def have been better...although last nite i was on the phone til twoish with jim it was ok...cus i slept til 10 headed to the gym where me n artemus had some fun...then came home to a nice tuna sandwich n ran a few errands n took a nice nap...i wake up and talk to jim on his break n boom i end up leavin the house again...well i go see grandpop n hang out with him for a lil while then head home which brings us to now...a new event today was i talked to casey...OHH i missed him soo much...we go back to elementry school days...hehe we chatted n whatnot..n we r gonna chill soon...so yeah...i gotta get some sleep soon i have a nursing oncology conference tommorw and i have to be there early...
heart
mish
<3

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ur name in parenthesies... [08 Nov 2005|12:45pm]
ahhhh i had the most horrific dreams last nite...and i was awaken at one point in the nite cus it was so wonderful n then i went back to bed n it totally changed....oh my it was not kosher in the least....yesterday i got into a food fight with a baby...fell down some steps...n then chilled with bradford...fun times most definitely as usual with bradford.....then i came home and ate some bananas n passed out....today i woke up...i didnt even go to the gym...i feel like a looser....but im soo blah right now for some odd reason....im about to call this kid alan back...but im procrastinating as usual...eh we'll see.....i have to go to work and im excited cus i m working with vicki and i LOVE it.... im probably hitting up the bar after work...it def seems like one of those nites...so im gonna go roll and take a shower...i heart u all

</3 mish
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nothing hurts like nothing at all.... [04 Nov 2005|04:25am]
[ mood | okay ]

ok so much has been happening this week...i have to let it all out....so here we go...let me start with a few days ago...one of my friends for like 4 years now happens to drop a bomb on me saying he feels we should be more than friends....and i duno what to do cus hes sucha good friend i m afraid to loose that and what if its wierd...ugh so much to ponder.....so yeah my parents went out earlier tonite and instead of taking advantage i slept...OMG it was sucha good sleep i never wanted to wake up...but then around 2ish davey called and we ended up driving around for a couple hours and talking....and the nite ended with a hug....things are kinda wierd when we hang out cus its like we r still together but we arent....ugh that gives me a headache...i have a few days off and i m very glad i can catch up on so much sleep ive been missing....and i can get all my errands done...ive got lots of bills to pay tommorow n then im takin netta to her interview n after that the day is free....so yeah well its 430 in the am i guess ill try n head back to sleep...i dont think it will be too hard...oh i just found out that russ n shannon r coming to my house for thanksgiving...(way to ruin my fucking holiday)...dave said hes gonna come to thanksgiving dinner and he'll make it better for me...uh,...yeah i duno
nite

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[02 Nov 2005|01:00am]
i cannot believe what just happened tonite...it definitely happened too....i wasnt dreaming.....
OH MY FUCKING GOD.....
KILLER!
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whats another word for desperate.... [30 Oct 2005|03:11am]
[ mood | amused ]

tonite was very very fun....i didnt like that one girl tho....and remembering last halloween and seeing that dude, def was funny ....he liked my costume tho ;)......while im at the party dave called but my phone was in the car...and i was left with a lovely message when i got back to the car....i dont understand why...we even talked earlier today and i believe that line that came up was...."we're not together so why does it matter".....and im like exactly.....ugh whatever....im not even sweatin it cus "we're not together"....i was gonna go to the party with dan tonite, but then i figured let me just have fun with my friends...and i def did...well im home now...not drunk not high nothing just tired....i talked to johanna tonite too....and we cleared everything up...and right now its like nothing ever happened....i like things like that....oh, right now im on a straylight run kick...and i cant get over it...im on the thing at the gym and im singin out loud..."SING ME SOMETHING SOFT, SAD AND DELICATE..OR LOUD AND OUT OF KEY"....oh baby was i def out of key...lol....tommorow i got lots of errands to do...chances r i might forget a few...but yeah i have to remember at 5 headin to the gym with netta...yeah...ok i think i blabbed enough...in short guys r gay...im feelin good...and im off of work tommorow...so holler fellas
i heart u all
especially the ones that keep me sane <3
mish

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u kno u do...u kill me well <3 [25 Oct 2005|08:54am]
i am fucking AMAZING..... u kno why...cus of last nite, thats why

<3
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i think im in love.... [20 Oct 2005|03:51pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

his name is artemus...and to me he is like a greek god...HA...hes awesome...
ok heres the explanation...he's my trainer at the gym...oh my gosh i loved it today...i worked my ass off and i actually feel energized...and now i get to go shopping cus for one im sort of addicted and today im gonna go buy an ipod....im gonna be fit and im happy....i bought a new friend last nite...cus i cant find my old friend...sorry netta i just cant wait til my birthday....things r good...and now im off to shower cus i m smelly and then out with the girls...and tonite hittin up sisters<3
i heart u all
love mish

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im so fed up... [18 Oct 2005|01:06am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

i m just so fed up with guys treating me like shit....i kno i take it...so they keep on givin it so i kno im the fool...
but im done now...between the phone call i got tonite...and other bull shit as of late...im soo tired...about an hour on the phone.....and i end up with a headache.
ugh and thats all i got
<3

fred...even ur bad date story isnt enough to make me smile tonite

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something to smile about... [17 Oct 2005|03:50am]
i won $150 tonite in AC....awesome stuff man...def makes me smile...now i have to wake up early tommorow to get my paycheck from one job then head to the other....ugh...n sometime in this week me n my pal vicki need to sign up for some gym...i feel kinda bad for bailin today on ballys...but lets keep it real...an overweight-asthmatic-smoker-drinker....to go head on wiht some marine personal trainer...what am i fucking nuts!!!....lmao....eh...yeah...i need to get to bed...but its um..kinda not happening...oh well...ill prob just find something to do til i finally pass out...later fellas....
<3
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we have as many churches as strip clubs... [14 Oct 2005|12:58am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

so heres my day.... well let me start from last nite...i fell asleep at like 10 woke up at 1 i talked to mike n dan all nite...i watched i think nypd blue at like 5am and it was pretty damn good...i talked to dan cus apperantly he didnt sleep either....then i finally get sleep aroung 530-6ish....i wake up 4 times to reset my alarm clock cus i had to keep pushing the time to get up later...and later...so i finally get my ass outta bed eat a bowl of frosted flakes talk to dave for a few n then hop in the shower....i arrive at work...crazy 1/2 of a shift and the other half a breeze....which brings me to now...im just about at the point of crashing but i felt the urge to talk to mike and tell him good nite....so that i did so bed sounds quite nice...
good stuff
i heart u all
<3
shell
ps im off all weekened!!!!its practically unbelieveable..
pps i think i have a date on saturday <3

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[05 Oct 2005|12:14am]
i get my new tattoo tommorow....thats the only thing lookin good for me this week...
i gotta go...people are calling my name
sniff
byee
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...rough draft [30 Sep 2005|01:48pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Like a Saturday night I'll be gone
Like a Saturday night I'll be gone
Before you knew that I was there

So you wrote it down
I'm supposed to care
Even though it's never there
Sorry if I'm not prepared
Is it hard to see the things you substitute
For me and all my thoughts of you
It's eating me alive to leave you

Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong
But so is your blank stare in lieu of this song
Maybe it's childish and maybe it's wrong

Don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song
Don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song

..so bored...but i soo love this song <3

I'm breathing in your skin tonight
Quiet is my loudest cry
Wouldn't wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside
And if it's healthier to leave you be
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me

I'm finding my own words, my own little stage
My own epic drama, my own scripted page
I'll send you the rough draft, I'll seal it with tears
Maybe you'll read it and I'll reappear
From the start it was shaky and the characters rash,
A nice setting for heartache where emotions come last
All I have deep inside, to overcome this desire
Are friendly intentions and fairweather smiles

And I don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song
Don't wanna be, don't wanna be wrong
You're leaving me, you're leaving me in lieu of this song

Like Saturday night I'll be gone
Like Saturday night I'll be gone
Like Saturday night I'll be gone
Like Saturday night I'll be gone before you knew that I was there

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dropping hearts...and breaking names... [21 Sep 2005|01:52pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

everyones yellin at me that they arent up to date with whats going on with me n davey....here's the latest...we are back together and are gonna try n work things thru....he is a huge pain in my ass...but he makes me smile...and lots of other things...right now im really tired and i have to go back to sleep cus i work tonite 7-then tommorow at 12 i have a dentist appointment then i have work tommorow 3-11 so i need to get as much sleep as possible cus im not gonna get much tommorow...ok fellas...im headin to bed...
i heart u all
</3 mish

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ok [18 Sep 2005|01:42pm]
[ mood | sad ]

its over with me n dave....this makes me sad....so fuck this im tired of dwelling on shit....we arent talking anymore....its totally over....i swear to god...im not doing this love shit again...if i start too fucking kick me in the face...
funny all this shit happens today....his birthday too

im sad...
i havent been sleeping lately
the nightmares are starting to take its toll on me
pssssshhhh
fuck this
</3 shell

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like a virgin? [16 Sep 2005|02:12am]
[ mood | drunk ]

i had the most amazing nite...i believe in a long time.... me netta n marybeth go to sisters cus maritza backed out...but its ok we get there and they have the most amazing special...$10 admission free 8 drinks and free food....plus kareoke....i must say it took a few drinks to actually get the courage n then john walks up to me ...n we start chatting n i told him i wanted me n netta to head up there to do the kareoke...n then we all decide me john netta n lee all go up and sing madonna- like a virgin....it was amazing...i loved every second of it...me n netta were the lead singers john was my back up singer and lee was nettas....it was purly amazing the whole joint was bumpin to our jam...now we are all considering a kareoke cover band....<3
its all short lived due to the fact john has to go back home to ireland in 7 months...but dont u worry we will be heading to a bar near u...between all the alchohol my loving friends...and the dancing im pooped...but an amazing nite was had
kudos
<3
im in such a loving mood
i heart u ALL
<3
mish

<3

oh wait i forgot about the bad....my mouth hurts...really bad...the drunkness took the pain away but i have an absess and its killing me...im going to the dentist tommorow morning 9am...im hoping i make it out alive...because despite me being a nurse im fucking terrified of the dentist....they R INSAINE!!!!......i think im gonna have to ask for a sedetive prior to this....cus chances are i might run out of the waiting room...but ill try to be a trooper...wish me luck
ok now im really heading to bed
muahz
xo
mish.

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